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A broken Heart lays scattered everywhere. Scarred with the injuries of crushed expectations, broken down, weary with exhaustion and burdened by the memories of the past. What does it unfold? A deep abyss of misery and pain. Anger at the reminder of mistakes, hatred swelling up within the bosom. What bitterness? We become alien to our own being, separated, feeling disgusted, living in utter chaos and pathos.
Why should such a thing happen with us? Why should things not be better for us? Why do we have to suffer through so much pain and agony?
How is it ever possible for us to gather ourselves again and start feeling better?
The Truth is, its not possible to start feeling better just by turning around and ignoring all this pain and misery. It is not possible to feel better, expecting again that something will cause the change.
It is not possible to be free, unless we know what is really binding us.
Pain is a healer, It slows us down, it makes Life more contemplative. It makes us look more within than without. This in itself is the Grace of the Divine. Without this pain, our attention would never ever turn towards our Heart. To move on further, it is not possible to do so, if we still continue to live in self deceit. Anger creates a veil, as self deceit predominates us, self aversion reveals its nature, when self aversion is experienced it further opens us to self hatred and self loathe. This vicious cycle never seems to end, conforming its existence only to the reality of the suffering we feel. It confirms only to the reality of the pain and misery experienced by us.
To be released seems impossible, our mind feels confused, clouded unable to see anything clearly. Unable to fathom or accept anything to be true. unable to trust anything, or keep faith in anyone.
Surely, we arrive at the zenith of our darkness within.
Where is light? Where is freedom then?
Mind with all the shadows of scarred and scattered emotions conceals the true nature of our being. Verily to say, the experience of the mind becomes our existence.
How is it the possible for us to be free?
From the depths of our grief and pain there is an rises a prayer from the Heart. A prayer to be released, a prayer to be free. This very desire for freedom carries a tremendous power within itself. It carries the seed of our Liberation. It is from the Heart of the Heart that this prayer arises from.
This is the silver lining chord that reveals the nature of Divinity left veiled in the very depth of our being. Love is its carrier. Pain it is Life Giver, and Freedom is its Birth.
When the human soul is pregnant and contained with the injuries of this world. Its Child of Liberation is ready to be born. But birth cannot happen unless there is the pain of birth to be undergone. For this birth pain is what makes is more alive. Pain is what keeps u awake and pain is what allows for the child of Freedom to be born.
Why then should we run away from what is Nature's movement for manifestation?
Pain is a healer because it makes us whole again, it gives us the sense of being alive again, it nourishes our soul back to health again. Pain is a life saver, and pain is also a life giver. Why then should we run away from pain? To be born is to suffer, but is there any possibility to be free if we are not born from pain?
Shyam Lala
Tiruvannamalai.
